Hey there!
So, I’ve been sitting here for a while trying to find a term that is more positive than each variation that pops into my head. I’m trying to avoid terms such as: ‘weakness’; ‘challenges’; ‘failings’.
Wanna know what I’m trying to describe? My relationship to consistency!
Ha! Talk about a first world problem huh? I’m aware that I would like to put out a blog out this week and every week, but I’m also aware that internally I tell myself a story that I probably sound inane and that there are far more important things in the world to attend to. Blah Blah…
Does that sound familiar? That there may be stories that you also tell yourself which provide the killer supporting evidence to your internal argument that ‘nobody cares’ and ‘nobody’s interested’? Here lies the path to procrastination, if you let it be so.
Now, a couple of weeks back I used the bold headline that I only write this blog to amuse myself, or something like that, and it’s true, I do! Because if I allow myself to believe that you, the reader, do or don’t care, then I give myself plenty of opportunity to convince myself that either way I’m going to fail you and so it would be better to just not bother. So I write it because I enjoy writing it, and it provides a sounding chamber for me to figure out what I feel and think about the world.
(Case in point, when I sat down to write this, I thought I’d be writing about ptsd and the pandemic two years on – but those words sounded dour and I wasn’t sure if I even agreed with the thoughts that seemed to be spilling out).
So here’s the crux. If you spend the entirety of your life wondering if you measure up to your perception of somebody else’s standards (and it’s important that it’s only your perception, who knows what another person really thinks).
Anyways, if you spend your life worrying what other people think, you’ll never allow yourself to be happy. Whereas, if you make the bold decision to do whatever it is that pleases you, then you’ll live a far more fulfilling life and feel happier, which in turn will give you the confidence to deal with other people’s contrary opinions if you ever need to.
To this point, I show up in your inbox pretty, fairly regularly, and if I don’t, well, it may well be that I found nothing to write about that pleased me that week, or maybe I was just being consistently inconsistent.
That said, one thing I have found to benefit me if I’m consistent about it is movement and getting on that blimming foam roller. Which is why you’ll find me tomorrow at lunchtime (Thursday the 3rd of February at 12:45pm UK time) hosting another Happy Body live session, they’re free this month, but you do have to sign up for a new zenler account.
I know, I know, you’re sick to the back teeth with zoom, and you have streaming accounts coming out of the wazoo, and you struggle to remember your passwords…
Yes, me too. I get it.
However,
Come play. You spend too much time sat on your jaxsy, and it’ll be fun, and if you can’t make it live you can watch it on the replay (There IS a good reason for having an account!).
Okay, so it’s a date?
You, me and a foam roller?
Cool.
Big love,
Carrie